Random Blabber

So... I have tolerated making a few friends from school... haha. Jimmy accuses me of making friends only so they can pick me up and drop me off to our classes but that's not true! Come on... I live a block away from school! =P

But anyway, I made like one friend in each of my classes. Translation: I like about one person in each class. Not so surprisingly, they are all slightly older (aka not just outta high school), intelligent, and some are hilarious! haha.

My friends have also um, diversified. I have a Hungarian friend, Israeli friend, Mexican friend... and the rest are white. Very different from all-asian Hawaii haha. The first two are uber funny... in a kind of dick but honest way lol.

But idk, I am still anti social in the sense that I still don't like doing... "stuff" all day, everyday. I find pointless "hanging out" well, pointless and a waste of time... so I mostly see them before class or rarely, I'll watch a movie with one or do random adventures. And I completely blow off my new roommate at all his attempts to get me to hang out doing anything... which I feel kind of bad about.. but not really. Bad because I haven't said yes once yet which probably hurts his feelings, not really because I really don't want to spend any more time with him than I already do at home.. He is very... disagreeable and ignorant and... socially awkward. He asks advice from me then doesn't listen at all and argues with what I say. Why ask me then? He is also uber dramatic and like a girl which I find very, very annoying. Oh, my other roommate and I also notice he talks to himself alot... Like, alot. I guess what I'm trying to say is he is weird. Anyway,

My 4 year old cousin asked me this a couple months ago after pictures of me on myspace with all my friends. She asked "Why do you have so many friends? Doesn't it get annoying?" (err, "fan" was lightly translated from chinese to annoying.. there is more meaning to it though)

I laughed when she asked that and replied "Hmm.. yes I suppose it is sometimes"

So anyway, I do enjoy the time that I spend with new friends (though prefer company of old ones) but idk, it is quite hard to maintain friendships when you'd rather not go on any of the outings you are invited to isn't it? lol. Somehow none of them have completely given up with me yet. It might have something to do with the fact that they are all male, lol.



I suppose it's wrong of me to not want to hang out with anyone who is not my "ideal" friend but I have really tried my best to straighten out my life and I don't want to ruin it by being led astray by hanging out with the wrong crowd. Sure, I should know better and I'm not a passive person... but regardless, you are influenced by your friends whether you like it or not. I watch my friend who was as sick of doing the same shit and wasting time as I was.... who moved here first, and now a year later, he is back to the same habits he was doing back home... Thanks to the friends he chose to hang out with. I don't want to fall in the same pattern so I'm taking my time in picking my friends.



It's hard to find someone who's really "got it together" though. In fact, I don't even know what it IS to "have it together". I am still process of searching for the best combination.. hence this self reflective questioning stage I am in now. To be honest... I really admire some of my professors. Sure, they got their own personality/social problems but they are so intelligent in various fields and seem to have a good sense of how the world works. I really see flashes of genius in the words they say sometimes. More so, some just seem... happy. Content with their life. What is their secret? It is too bad that they aren't eager to reveal more of their wisdom to the generally dumb, ignorant public schooling attendants. I don't blame them. Some of the things that come out of the mouths of my fellow students really baffle me. The prof will say something genius.... like life altering advice that can only be learned from great experience and a dumb kid will object it cause "they know better".... anyway, it blows me away. Of course my professors are pretty pompous and quite aware of how much smarter they are than the average individual.. I wonder how they feel having to be surrounded by a bunch of idiots all day long.. lol. Maybe, they were once like us so they have tolerance for it knowing one day we'll learn.

I guess, in today's day and age, it is so easy to get caught up in hip hop culture where it's cool to be ghetto and have no dignity and no respect etc. I find all of that terribly unattractive now. I like people with elegance and class. There seems to be very few (young) females with these qualities however. It's all about who can get the drunkest, dress the sluttiest then let their tits and ass hang out as to see who can attract the most attention from dogs - I mean guys. Sure, I was guilty of this myself at one point.. and I still probably get sucked into the hype once in a while but never, ever to that level! I always had self control.. and was more stuck up and prude than eager to please.

I think girls should be more refined.. I watched some video someone posted on a bulletin from an import show. Wow, do these girls realize they might as well be porn stars? At least they would make more money. It's so sad how they feel they have to ooze of sex to get attention and be loved.

Wonder when this whole slutty era will end and what will be the next era. 80's, 90s, um, are we in the 00's? 100's? lol. Maybe it will start in 2010 =)

Anyway, I have ALL of my finals on Tuesday and Wednesday so this weekend will be a busy weekend. I am quite confident I will be getting A's in 3 of my classes and most likely an A in the last one however that will require alot of effort on my part to finish up this essay for the class. We'll see :)