wtf

God, am I really at the age where my mom's friends are starting to suggest to my mom that I "meet" their sons... I feel old.
I'm glad I'm such a hot commodity to these dorky chinese socialites but I'll be damned if I let that happen... That's pratically an arranged marriage! I'm perfectly capable of finding a suitible uh, suitor on my own... I think!! But what the fuck... I'm too young to get married right now anyway.. what are they thinking? -_- i SUPPOSE if it somehow happened and we dated for like a few YEARS... maybe like at least 3 years later I MIGHT settle down... but that's a long shot!! What about... my life!! Idk. Some people might be able to get married at 23,25 but if I think about it... that's 3 years from now!! 3 years fly by like nothing.. I'm not ready to think about having to get married yet what the hell.
I don't know why these thoughts are crossing my mind. I guess it's the first time my mom brought something like that up. I think I'm too young but then I start thinking at what age IS a good time to get married? I know I don't want to be like, 30 and single. Sooo idk sometime in the next 9 years I suppose it'll happen... fuck, 9 years doesn't seem like so long. My childhood is passing by before I know it...

Hawaii Mode

I am not taking the high route here... I've been here for 1 1/2 months and now I have 2 weeks left... what have I done??
Err... practically nothing. Haven't seen majority of my friends, didnt do any real touristy stuff.. went ot the beach twice for brief periods of time and watched a whole crap load of movies... and pigged out! hahha where did my motivation go? Oh that's right, I smoked it away =_=
But..... it's been enjoyable like, 90% of the time. I didn't get to spend as much time with my family as I'd like but I guess my priorities are skewed... I really miss school but I know I'm also gonna miss the comfort of home when I leave.
I realized that for a while, I really just hated all californians. thinking back... I'm not sure what I was thinking, maybe I was depressed from culture shock. lol. It was nice spending so much time by myself I suppose, I learned alot but I think I will change a few things up when I get back.... allow myself more friends instead of being a complete loner lol. I didnt realize how much I miss having people around.