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Hahha... School's started and I couldn't be happier. My professors are pleasantly brilliant, I absolutely love them... each have their own zest to them, completely different teaching styles and personalities and I adore it... adds variety to my day.

Political Science 51 is surprisingly hard.. alot of reading on philosophers.. currently reading Plato's "Republic". Which is... the first and easiest of many readings for the semester. Yikes.

I spend my days.... cooking, cleaning, organizing, contemplating, planning and of course, going to school and doing homework. I haven't bothered with my social life, in fact most days I only hang out with my roommate. I've gotten pretty good at a variety of dishes.. I made a kick ass chicken curry, various chicken dishes, chinese cabbage, and still working on perfecting my spaghetti. I finally made rice porridge.... that didn't turn to super bloated rice lol.

I stay home and read alot.... both for school and for leisure. I've barely stepped out of the vicinity of school and work. When I do, it's to shop for more food or books for school.

Strangely enough, I'm not bored. This is less company than I've probably ever had in my life and I'm content!

My friends have gotten a hint and I've probably gotten less than... 50 texts in the last week? That's crazy. I used to get at least that in one day!

I'm oddly calm... I don't feel a need to do something or achieve anything at the moment. Not to say I'm not ambitious about school, cause I definitely am! but I guess I feel like I'm doing what I should be doing right now and don't need to move or do something else.


I'm planning on studying abroad. As many time as I can. Maybe as soon as this winter to South Africa. Wtf, I know. s. Af is obviously not my first choice of destinations but choices at a CC are limited and s.Af happens to be the program that starts the soonest. It's also supposed to be a great program! S. Africa is also filled with all white people. ;)

I like Chinese class... my Chinese is much more advanced than those of my peers in Chi 1... but I need to take it cause I don't know my "bopomofo's" -- I don't know how to read or write Chinese. If it were just for the grade, I wouldn't care and would've just took Chi 2.. but I'm taking this for personal benefit and future business ammo :). I spend much of class helping others with their pronunciation and it's pretty fun actually. My teacher is Shanghainese... Shanghainese + being voluntary TA = prof loves ya. But then again, all my professors love me ;).

I'm going to start doing charity work. Looking at "Reading to Kids" right now... was gonna do LoveLA with Sung but idk... picking up trash and mingling with the homeless is really not my thing. I'm gonna join a club (Either Asian Student Association or Entrepreneur Club. Or both). I'm gonna train for swimming again and maybe join the swim team. Tho my athletic ability has definitely declined since I was last state champ hahaha. In a year, I may run for president. =P Should I rephrase that? "In a year, if I feel like it, I'm gonna Be president". Lol.. Okay, my cockiness has not changed much. hahaha.

I might've mentioned this before, I don't remember, but after SMC I'm going to either go to USC, UCLA or Pepperdine or something... oooorr go to NYU. We shall see :) I'd love to go to Wharton... is that after USC?




I have a hard time looking at my professors in class. Or rather, I find it easier to not look at them. All the poker and sales is still fresh in my mind and when I look at them I start focusing less on the lecture and more on psychoanalyzing them. It's a great thing my teachers are intelligent.. I have a hard time respecting and learning from people I think are dumb... like the professors in Hawaii.

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DK is landing in... 1 hour? Yaay :) 10 days of company. One of the few people I don't mind spending 24/7 with. Okay. 22/7. =P

Must try to go to sleep... Fashion district today!! :) Ikea this weekend! 6 flags if it's still open! ^___^ Ranch99 to buy chicken bullion! San Gabriel for massage & kiwi drink!!

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I love my life. All stages of it =P

Gettin Old

oh god... i am getting old :(:(:( no more crazy cat...

I hate clubbing more and more... once in a while is ok, everyweek SUCKS!! I practically have to be dragged out... even in vegas!!

I hardly EVER stay out past 2... and if I do all I wanna do is go home. I like being in my home... when did this happen??

I have less and less tolerance for people I don't like... and I can see myself being more and more reluctant to dress provocatively... couple more years and I'm going to be dressed entirely um... classy and not slutty.. what is happening to me! hahha wtf

At this moment I can still dress like a ho and I can have tub parties with my girls (hahaha) but I can FEEL myself edging closer to getting... idk.. boring hahaha.

IM NOT OLD ENOUGH TO REALIZE PARTYING IS A WASTE OF TIME!! damn it! I should be partying my ass off without a care in the world right now. wtf...

honestly all I wanna do recently is start school again, learn alot, go grocery shopping so I can experiment cooking different dishes and eat, and organize my house and my belongings and maybe read a little bit. WTF!! whats wrong! this is not me! ORGANIZE??? for no reason?? what??

I'm so confused with myself. I thought I loved partying. Does this happen to everyone? Cause apparently this hasn't happened to all of my old (aged) friends. hahah.




Oh. what I'm really wondering is: Is this just a phase or is this permanent?? I'm not even legal yet... how can I be sick of everything!?

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Moving to LA has been one of the best decisions of my life so far... I would regret that I took so long to finally move but I guess I wasn't ready yet. :)

Vacationing in Hawaii for the last two weeks made me realize.... nothing really. Cause nothing's changed here in the slightest bit.

School has enlightened me. I love it... I never ever ever in a million years would I have thought I would love school but I'm actually really looking forward to start school again. I'm thinking of going to law school... but that's a long time from now.

My health is also great... It freakin should be considering the lengths that I go through to ensure it.. I had EVERYTHING checked here.. All of my blood tests came back perfectly.. Livers great, hearts great, the other 20 things on the list were great... went to the dermatologist for my scab thing and she said nothings wrong with me. I would've probably taken an std test too but I don't have sex so that's not necessary. hahaha. I don't know why I'm so anal about my diet and my health but I am.

I used to love change, and still do, but I'm also liking the stability I've come to have now. Life was SO unstable a year ago. Didn't know what the hell I was doing, what I wanted, or anything, really. I didn't realize I was so lost. I finally realize what my mom meant.. "ha fon ma e ze uh" haha vaguely translated to mean mean having wild crazy fun is pointless. Fun wasn't fun anymore after a while =P.

I think, when the time is right, the right things will come... :)


The older I get, the less tolerance I have for bullshit. I can't run away fast enough from mentally unstable people.. Having one around was good enough for the rest of my life. Learned my lesson... I was stubborn not listening to anyone saying it will only harm me and there's nothing I can do to change it.. and everyone was right. No matter how much good you do for those people or how much you care (heaven forbid you actually get close enough get emotionally attached..) when the time comes and it really comes down to it... they won't remember because they will convince themselves otherwise. I'm an extremely logical person and when it comes to them.... there is just no logic in their thinking. It's sad cause sometimes I really see a good person and other times I truly fear for my safety in their presence. I don't understand how it works and the time has finally come that I really don't care and don't want to bother to change it. The bad has outweighed the good for so long and it's really time to cut my losses... I usually have no problems whatsoever with that but idk. Something hit a weak spot in this case. This time, it's truly over..