Happy

hmmm so looking back on my blogs... looks like everything I predicted came true :) both the good and the somewhat not so great... which is a great thing!

I've been trying to live life somewhat simple (in my standards anyway haha) :) No superstar lifestyle just yet. School it great, it keeps me grounded. I've realized that I've been living with a lot of emphasis on being grounded.. which is a very recent development starting this year. Having something to compare with the awesomeness I'm lucky enough to get to experience so that I can fully experience the awesomeness when it occurs. Does that make sense?? It's like.. you don't know just how great good food is until you eat crap food.

Being well rounded has always been my thing but now more than ever :).

Someone once tried to psychoanalyze me and find the reason behind my many travels last year. "Are you trying to run away from something?"

At the time I was like umm, no I just like to travel. But looking back, I guess he was (partly) right. I will always have the love of travel but I no longer want the extremes of being gone 9 months out of the year. LA feels much more like home than Hawaii ever did hehe. I'd say I actually enjoy the company of about 1 out of 3 people I meet or at least find them interesting compared to the 1 out of... um 30 in Hawaii. Although I was not running away from a troubling life or anything close to what he thought, I was running away from a unfulfilling life style. It was the constant urge to get off the damn island and grow!

Goes back to Maslow's hierarchy of needs; something you learn in psychology



I had everything on the bottom of the pyramid... basic needs, safety, well loved, maybe over esteemed but I was not "the best I could possibly be" and although I'm still far from it, it's no longer stumped which makes me feel g.r.e.a.t. ! :)

I would never ever ever ever ever raise my kids in Hawaii. It's amazing if anyone can turn even a LITTLE bit ambitious coming from there... it's against all odds! Thank god I got to travel when I was younger and my parents were fob enough to keep me away from being "local"

Anyway gotta finish this later -



Just for reference

According to Maslow, the tendencies of self-actualizing people are as follows:

1. Awareness

* efficient perception of reality
* freshness of appreciation
* peak experiences
* ethical awareness

2. Honesty

* philosophical sense of humour
* social interest
* deep interpersonal relationships
* democratic character structure

3. Freedom

* need for solitude
* autonomous, independent
* creativity, originality
* spontaneous

4. Trust

* problem centered
* acceptance of self, others, nature
* resistance to enculturation - identity with humanity


or go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hierarchy_of_needs :)

Since I'm in a writing mood after writing for 8 hours...

Here's some random, funny shit that I've been thinking about lately... haha

I don't know what's worse... having lots of visitors or not having any at all. On one hand, it's great seeing good friends and having company 24/7... on the other hand, by the time they leave and go to the airport, I want to cry! Makes me wondering what the hell I'm doing moving here all by myself and going to SCHOOOL of all things haha. I'm by myself so much now and although for the most part I don't hate it.. but when good company comes to town like a few have come recently it gives me something to compare with so by the time they leave I want to tie them down and throw them in my closet so they can't leave me lol.

Ok, not that bad, I'm not THAT crazy =D I guess it'll be better when I start finding people I actually like... more specifically GIRL friends. haha. There's a few guys I've met here that are awesome.. but I've had like NO girls in my life cept for a few really young ones from school that I can't relate to whatsoever. I had one girl over and all she could talk about was "LIKE Oh my god I HAVE to go to that party! Like OMG!". I think my IQ went down a few notches just from listening to her call her friends tryna get invited for a party for 2 hours. The rest I met are brainless sluts at clubs... I don't mind slutty clubbers but they have to have a brain haha. I think I'm just used to people hanging around all day just chillin and I don't have that here! Hmm... at least when people come over they fill my fridge with bottled water, take me to do laundry, do random household chores for me, then leave me with a fridge full of take out when they leave lol. They all came extremely close to missing their flight.. but didn't (damn haha).


My roommate seems to have her own K drama going on next door... haha. The first time she brought people over it was two guys.. They hung out and ate with her.. The next day one of the guys came over and stood outside talking to her for like... an hour and a half. Then the next day the OTHER guy came. I guess guy 1 got blown off and guy 2 won cause he is over alot more now... but sheesh at least let the other guy come in and sit down and talk to you... haha. It's kind of funny cause I have to come to my own conclusions what's going on cause none of them speak english! Everyone seems to be pimpin... except for me ;)


It also sucks when I'm the cleanest person in my household... I'm extremely anal but back home I was never the one who had to clean much... but if others leave the place dirty... I'm the one who ends up cleaning it cause if I don't, no one else will! Wtf. It also occurred to me that one of these days I'm gonna have to clean the toilet.... wow, I'm not looking forward to that day. The current roommate is not THAT bad but I know the one coming in August is REALLY irresponsible.. she's going to drive me nuts.. great!

This roommate also leaves her pubes everywhere as Henry kindly pointed out to me. haha. It's all over the bathroom, on my brand new couch the day after I got it and the other day I found pubes on my brand new bed... and um.. I don't have any pubes. WTF?? There's also stray hairs everywhere in the carpet that aren't mine cause I just moved here and my hair is longer and thinner. -____-

Oh yeah. Besides the fact that no one else should have sex on my furniture other than me, they better not have sex on my couch or my futon before I do! And I'm going to be celebate for a very long time... Pubes is already gross, if I find cum stains on my bean bag I'm going to kill someone!

I guess this is "college life".

-__-


Okay, okay, despite all that, I'm really not that miserable. I've been really happy. I LOVE it here :) There's just a few minor tweaks and changes that will come in time that will make it even better... In Hawaii, I always had the urge to get away thus, all the trips I took. Here, I'm content where I am.. I'm in no rush to go anywhere, anytime soon! However, I'm thinking of going back to Hawaii for a week or so in August after summer school. Although I don't really WANT to be back there's some stuff to take care of plus I can work a bit and I gotta get Bebe to the vet.. Plus I miss my bitches :). My brain-ed bitches lol.

I love my room now... it's pimped out! All that's missing now is a Pimp Mirror which I will get as soon as I find one I like :) THANK YOU DANNY ^_^ i absolutely LOVE my whiteboard/shelf thing on the wall... good thing I thought of it ;) haha. We somehow got everything to fit in my closet!



Can you believe SMC students pay $20 a class to go to SMC? I'M PAYING 10 FREGGEN GRAND A YEAR! For city college! Blah. I guess it's good.. makes me appreciate it, otherwise I probably would have dropped out by now haha. At least by paying more, I feel as if I am getting a better education... LOL. which I am, compared to KCC... though HPU was pretty great too.. judging from the very short time that I spent there haha. But that was expensive too. haha.

I'm hoping that I do well the next year at SMC and graduate deans list but only time will tell. If I do, I want to transfer to Wharton in PA. Or maybe NYU cause I love NY. I found out that residency in CA really doesn't make that much of a difference for UCLA or Berkeley and I figure by the time two years roll by, I'll have had enough of LA.. Shit, I've been here for less than 2 months and I've already gone to most of the areas that seem to be so popular... And sometime inbetween or after that I want to spent at least a few months out of country... Either studying abroad or just fucking around during a summer. *sigggh* I would have never imagine I'd have somewhat of a plan for myself other than where I'm going to party the next day!

I'm dying to get out of this country... After I conquest LA & New York there are really no other cities I care to explore in the US. They're all pretty much the same. SF was boring as hell.. and Vegas gets old.. QUICK! Maybe check out Boston & Chicago but I don't think I'd ever want to live there..

Shanghai... HK, Japan, Korea, ALL OVER Europe, Vietnam, Thailand, Egypt, Australia.. So many things I want to do, can't do them fast enough! I wonder where I'll ultimately end up after I've done my share of world exploration.. I was thinking, in English class, that I after I've made my millions and done what I want, all I really want to do when I'm old and wrinkled is sit in a park bench and chill with my equally old and wrinkled significant other and live a simple life. LOL. But who knows... that's a long time from now.

Although, I don't regret the trips I've taken, I wish I went out of country more!! Would have cost the same... or less lol. But idk, guess it's good too. The older I get, the more I experience or notice everywhere I go. I'm dyyyying to go back to Shanghai.. That is 1 on the list. Maybe winter break?? A month long vaca to Shanghai is something I REALLY want... more than any other material thing I want or have!

Ok enough.. I gotta get to sleep :] English midterm tomorrow.. spent 8 hours pulling an essay out of my ass but it came out surprisingly good after some revisions. 2nd essay I've written in 4 years lol. *sigh* This weekend I'll be catching up on all the Anthropology studying that I haven't been doing.. I don't think I can get an A in the class but I'm hoping for a B! We will see.. damn.. all I really want to learn about is business, marketing, advertising, psychology and economics... Why, why, why must they throw in all this essay writing and science bs! :]