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Moving to LA has been one of the best decisions of my life so far... I would regret that I took so long to finally move but I guess I wasn't ready yet. :)

Vacationing in Hawaii for the last two weeks made me realize.... nothing really. Cause nothing's changed here in the slightest bit.

School has enlightened me. I love it... I never ever ever in a million years would I have thought I would love school but I'm actually really looking forward to start school again. I'm thinking of going to law school... but that's a long time from now.

My health is also great... It freakin should be considering the lengths that I go through to ensure it.. I had EVERYTHING checked here.. All of my blood tests came back perfectly.. Livers great, hearts great, the other 20 things on the list were great... went to the dermatologist for my scab thing and she said nothings wrong with me. I would've probably taken an std test too but I don't have sex so that's not necessary. hahaha. I don't know why I'm so anal about my diet and my health but I am.

I used to love change, and still do, but I'm also liking the stability I've come to have now. Life was SO unstable a year ago. Didn't know what the hell I was doing, what I wanted, or anything, really. I didn't realize I was so lost. I finally realize what my mom meant.. "ha fon ma e ze uh" haha vaguely translated to mean mean having wild crazy fun is pointless. Fun wasn't fun anymore after a while =P.

I think, when the time is right, the right things will come... :)


The older I get, the less tolerance I have for bullshit. I can't run away fast enough from mentally unstable people.. Having one around was good enough for the rest of my life. Learned my lesson... I was stubborn not listening to anyone saying it will only harm me and there's nothing I can do to change it.. and everyone was right. No matter how much good you do for those people or how much you care (heaven forbid you actually get close enough get emotionally attached..) when the time comes and it really comes down to it... they won't remember because they will convince themselves otherwise. I'm an extremely logical person and when it comes to them.... there is just no logic in their thinking. It's sad cause sometimes I really see a good person and other times I truly fear for my safety in their presence. I don't understand how it works and the time has finally come that I really don't care and don't want to bother to change it. The bad has outweighed the good for so long and it's really time to cut my losses... I usually have no problems whatsoever with that but idk. Something hit a weak spot in this case. This time, it's truly over..