Gettin Old

oh god... i am getting old :(:(:( no more crazy cat...

I hate clubbing more and more... once in a while is ok, everyweek SUCKS!! I practically have to be dragged out... even in vegas!!

I hardly EVER stay out past 2... and if I do all I wanna do is go home. I like being in my home... when did this happen??

I have less and less tolerance for people I don't like... and I can see myself being more and more reluctant to dress provocatively... couple more years and I'm going to be dressed entirely um... classy and not slutty.. what is happening to me! hahha wtf

At this moment I can still dress like a ho and I can have tub parties with my girls (hahaha) but I can FEEL myself edging closer to getting... idk.. boring hahaha.

IM NOT OLD ENOUGH TO REALIZE PARTYING IS A WASTE OF TIME!! damn it! I should be partying my ass off without a care in the world right now. wtf...

honestly all I wanna do recently is start school again, learn alot, go grocery shopping so I can experiment cooking different dishes and eat, and organize my house and my belongings and maybe read a little bit. WTF!! whats wrong! this is not me! ORGANIZE??? for no reason?? what??

I'm so confused with myself. I thought I loved partying. Does this happen to everyone? Cause apparently this hasn't happened to all of my old (aged) friends. hahah.




Oh. what I'm really wondering is: Is this just a phase or is this permanent?? I'm not even legal yet... how can I be sick of everything!?