Instability

It's never wise to hold on to the past. Change is the beauty of life! Sometimes however, I do wonder if there is such thing as "too much change". As it's been over a year now since I moved to LA, one of my most prominent thoughts on moving to a strange city on your own is that it's very, very hard. Especially coming from a place like Hawaii and everything is so comfortable. Most people have a hometown, a place where they grew up, know everyone, have family and are very familiar with their surroundings. When you move away to a strange city, suddenly you are stripped of that! Things can get very lonely and difficult without a strong support system and many people never make it past that and create a new life for themselves, they just long for their old one.

I'm quite happy where I am now. Living in a great area, in a nice house, have a growing amount of quality friends and have familiarized myself with many of the different areas of LA and surrounding places. I love the diversity here. I reside on the West side but a short drive in one direction will bring me to K-town, another direction brings me to San Gabriel and Alhambra, a little further brings me to OC. Or if I'm feeling beachy I'll go down to Venice, Huntington or Redondo. It's definitely a highlight of living in LA and I dare say I am getting quite comfortable here at my new home.

The reason I'm writing this though is because I'm rather amused. It took me a year to get to this point and I'd imagine that most people would be quite relieved that they successfully concurred a new city and though I am very content with my life here, I know it will be short-lived. Then I start thinking of how my next move will once again bring up the feelings of uneasiness and lack of close friends. Which really wouldn't be a problem except that I know that once I tackle the next city... it will only be a short while before I move again!! Gosh that is a lot of nest building. haha. I barely get nestled in somewhere and I have to do it all over again. I do enjoy it somewhat but one always misses the comforts of home.

In about another year I will be moving again so I can transfer schools. This semester completes my IGETC but since most UC's do not accept during fall, I'll be here an extra 6 months. It's likely that I will go to Irvine or San Diego and I won't have a problem to admission with either but I just haven't decided where I want to go yet. I recently took a trip to San Diego for the first time with my boyfriend and I absolutely loved it! UCSD also has great education. If I move to Irvine, I'll have some friends already and familiar with the area and know it has great food! I haven't made my decision yet.. I'm going to be bummed to be so far away from the diversity of LA and to leave my gorgeous house but I can't hold on to this forever, there are better things to come.

It's so funny that the life I'm living right now, I dreamed of when I was much younger. I always wanted to live in LA. I do love this city but the people here really live up to their stereotypes. One of the things I liked best about San Diego is that the people seemed more down to earth. Everyone in LA is "so Hollywood". I've figured out that I probably don't want to live in LA for the rest of my life and so, on to the next thing. On my mind is New York and definitely Shanghai. New York has never seemed like a place of permanent establishment for me, more of a city I'd like to get a taste of, just to get a feel of what the lifestyle is like there. I doubt I would be there for more than 6 months to a year. Shanghai, I want to be there longer but again, I can't see myself living there for long. Both cities, I want to do business in and can see great opportunities.

It feels good to ruminate and know that I can make it happen because I've done it before. Sure, plans change and I may feel entirely different with time but I have my outline drafted and I'll fill in the details later. =) The journey will be just as great, if not greater than the destination.